Shukaku no Gaara

14/10/07

2007-10-14T22:06:00.000+08:00

I love you

I love you to the point of being absurd

I have only eyes for you

I know I’m annoying

But I want you to know…

If you run away, I’ll come running after you

No matter where you go, be it hell…

Or the furthest corner on earth, I’ll catch up with you

8/10/07

2007-10-08T20:18:00.000+08:00

Woo the special day of mine!!heex thanks guys!! Wake not really early in the afternoon, went for lessons -.- Met up with Yond and went to class tgt...After then met bro and others - Happy Birthday Melvin!! Oh gosh, that's damn touching alright!!! THANK GUYS!!hahahax =) Today is just so nice, everything goes well for me, including my exams!!heex =) After then, went to Safeway to get stuffs and headed home. Suddenly, Singyen called and started to ask whether I have any plans later?? I replied No and she suggested to dine at a Indo restaurant..Ask who's going? 2bros + Jas and her. Wah the place damn cool huh, situated in a garage sia..cars parked all over and there's a restaurant..cool!! PLUS there are pool tables around!! damn nice..!The food was nice although bit oily huh?! but it's fine since today is just such a nice day!!heex =) Have my birthday celebrated over there, with cakes - Triple chocolate + Vanilla Slice + Passionfruit cake and Goreng Pisang?? (Did I spell it correctly??)x] Woo looks tempting and delicious!!!nice nice nice and nice!!! Love it!! After dinner, went to play pool hahax, fun and fun and fun!! that's the way to describe it! ^_6 Really enjoy it..Thanks guys, all of you make my day!!rawk on!!heex love all of you!!! =)

7/10/07

2007-10-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

Just touchdown in Melbourne Airport at 6am+..damn tired nia! And guess what!! My bro - Haoyu was waiting for me at CS since 5am!!hahax I guess he really love me a lot huh!? Thank bro! Love you 2!! =] Went over my place and chat for awhile, wanted to have breakfast nearby but none of the shops are opened yet!!!7.30am..forgiven!!haix..went back and bathe and sleepp!!=) Wake up by bro and say wanted to have dinner at Melbourne Central! Woke up and bathe and meet him! Went to meet everyone!! Glad to c everyone yea!!!=) Twins bought a kitty name nightmare - must be a nightmare for them huh?!lol goodluck to twins ar!!!haahax =) Have dinnner at Ying Thai 2 at Lygon instead of Melbourne Central had eat till our fills!damn shiok huh!eat and eat =) damn nice lehz..I love it.! x] haahhx..After then went over to Jasmine's place to watch "Secret" - Jay Zhou movie.!! OMG is damn touching and creepy at some part...BUT i still love Qing Yi instead of Rain!!hahax..dunnoe y?maybe she more attactive??hahah..bleh!+_+ the show ended at went home to rest...Log into MSN and here comes Boon Keng and Yining with their wishes, followed by Suling wif her blurness - forgiven in the end (dun dare to not forgive her) hehexx..Aniwae thanks guys!!! Love all of you!! Have a pleasant night everyoneZ!!cya =)

6/10/07

2007-10-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Wake up early this morning to meet Yun Hua, Yining, Peishi and Boon Keng at JE entertainment for lunch!! Erm..we have our lunch in a Korea restaurant and the food there quite unique huh?guess so??never c b4?! btw I dun even know the place exists and Peishi said it had opened for 2 yrs+??huh?!really!! i really dunnoe its existence.! After lunch and have the birthday cake served for me and Boon!!celebrate my birthday earlier as I going back to Australia on 6 October and can't celebrate on the actual day itself!!! So touched to c the cake!!omg...tears??NO!hahahx =) really touched!! Thanks you all..LOVE YOU! =) Went home and pack my stuffs..and head towards the airport.!!terminal 1 nth to shop and so boring!!haix.. -.- miss mummy, miss friends, miss everyone!!!!but I'll be back soon!! LOVE ALL!!

2/10/07

2007-10-03T13:55:00.000+08:00

Supposed to play basketball wif my friends at West Coast CC, but can't. My skin was rotting and peeling like a snake!damn it!i cannot stretch well and thus can't play basketball. This kindda of suck when you wanna play wif ur friends but you can't, only c them play har.!awww.Guess the trip to Sentosa is a bad omen huh?!hehehex. Sun burn tilll jialat, skin turn black somemore. Just like what my sister say" You are like the grass under the magnifying glass! you dumbo!"sobsob.=(really dumb for not putting all sorts of lotions to protect your skin.!=[ Aniwae, I still went to meet them. After the game, is already 9+pm and wanna eat prata, someone shouted. (yiuhung?!) PRATA PRATA PRATA!!! LOL..

Alex "hey go pasir panjang eat prata lehz? "
All "wtf..mai siao leh!? you go there yourself ok? byebye?! *LAUGHING!"

Feel bad for alex nia, always get bully by others..haix..same goes for chao!!next time both of you dun say so much ok?then people won't suan you le.!hahax=)chill! -.- Eat prata near Charmaine's house, joke around wif the boss and listen to few LAME jokes which are not funny at all, contributed by Jun Chao!haix...-.-!! After the prata, went to play dota in West Coast RC - DNA. Had a lot of fun and laughter!! And I suddenly remember, today is Boon Keng's birthday!!!wooo=) But I completely forgotten about it.!paiseh nia!=[ hahax I guess you would not be so petty right? kaki!! hahahx dun understand right?!forget it.!bleh -.-

Happy 18th Birthday Boon Keng!

29/9/07

2007-09-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 8.20am to take a ball from Yun Hua. Meet Boon Keng at 9am near my house bus-stop, heading towards Sentosa! We took direct bus to harbourfront and met Yiu Hung there. After then, Yiu Hung and me had breakfast at food republic while Boon Keng went and settled his own things which took him nearly 30mins+. Dunnoe what took him so long to say a few words and bla bla bla..noob that all I can say -.- Upon reaching Sentosa, my "buddy" is still sleeping. Wait for a while, and finally he has awaken!yea!sun-tanning time!=) Wow, sun-tanned till everyone burning, and I can feel the heat burning all over my body!damn painful.!o.0 Boon Keng and Jun Chao stayed back to look after belongings, me and Hung went for cycling. Cycle here and there also the same place, Sentosa is currently upgrading and many of the roads have been sealed. Furthermore, the main attraction - magical fountain (I guess) is shut down. Dunnoe shut down for what purpose, upgrading??do too much magic and scare children??DUNNOE!then cycle to Fort Siloso and nothing much. The routes are just damn bored, up and down the slope, hate going up the slope - as if I'm in the expedition of the Journey to the West, freaking tired and knn damn shack. -.- Oh ya, before that we cycled through the Emerald Pavilion and there is a person shouting" OEI!"dunnoe for what, perhaps we cannot cycle through?but who cares..mai kbkp alright..chiong!!lol we laughed.=) After cycling, we decided to leave Sentosa and had dinner at Vivo. Hung had to leave first because he still had to worked, suay. Went home after my dinner, slept in the bus. I 'm damn TIRED! My skin is burning, ouch!!=( Time for bedtime!

26/9/07

2007-09-26T11:12:00.000+08:00

Alright today I had my Napfa Test in Toa Payoh Stadium. I felt disappointed for my STB because seriously I can't jump for shit =(. Other stations were alright and the most outstanding station would be my SNR i guess. One of the people over there can stretch up to 53 and the instructor was shocked! He said" ANYONE WHO CAN BEAT THIS SCORE OF 53, I WILL TREAT HIM FOR BREAKFAST!" Various people went to try but still cannot beat the previous high score of 53. It's my turn. I told myself I can do it.Come on.! One of the instructor was saying"Hey this guy look great, I guess your breakfast will be gone! We joked around and I started to stretch. Guess what?! 56!=) The instructor was like OMG crazy guy!I just giggle, heex.=) I was very happy!yea! FOC breakfast..heex=] However, even though the rest of the stations were coping well, I felt depressed because I cannot obtain GOLD because of my STB.

Here are my results:

Sit Up: 5
Chin up: 4
Sit & Reach: 5
Broad Jump: 2!!
Shuttle Run: 5
2.4km Run: 4

Total Scores: 25
Status: Pass
Award: Silver!!=(

After getting back my result, I called my brother because I wanted to share wif him the good news that I had passed the Test. I called.

Me: Bro, I passed!
He: What award?
Me: erm..Silver.
He: Fuck you! SILVER!? You weakling!
Me: *stunned.
He: SILVER AND YOU THINK IS A GOOD NEWS!!
Me: I had tried my best for the STB and I just can't make it.
He: NO YOU DIDN'T! I HAVE ASKED YOU TO TRAIN SINCE WHEN HUH!
Me: I did train!!!
He: THEN WHY STILL SILVER! RETAKE!
Me: Are you crazy! I had passed already and you still want me to retake just to get the GOLD medal!
He: *talked about army stuffs which I can't really understand. After then, he hang up.
Me: *speechless.

I understand where he is coming from. He always wanted the best out of me and I do know that it's for my own good. However, I just wanted to let him know that I had really tried my very best so as to attain GOLD. I even beg for a chance to retake the STB and hoping that the officer would give me that chance which is so important to me. But in the end, it still failed me. I was literally depressed. No more gold medal, so what if you did well for other stations.you can't jump shit, I told myself =[....I was feeling down right now...

22/9/07

2007-09-22T17:21:00.000+08:00

Hey Guys! Finally, I had finished my exams~Hooray! =) Aniwae, let me introduce a gal that I'm deeply in love with.heex countdown 3, 2, 1! Bingo, Ai Otsuka! She rawk and her voice could charm anyone who hear it..isn't that awesome? She would be my ideal gf!!omg i love you Ai =)hahax.. if it's real I would be on cloudnine -.- Here is one of her MTV - Kingyo Hanabi. It's a touching and emotional MTV! Furthermore, it's damn nice! heeehx.

Here it is:

Enjoy!

1/9/07

2007-09-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

HIHI! Exams are just 2 weeks away from now! bored have to get back to routine.study, study study.!haix. Aniwae everything is going fine here dun have to worry much! what about everyone else??doing fine?good?best?! heex. NO MORE WINTER!NO MORE!NONOOO! hahax may be a good new but the current temperature is killing me, far too hot! i wonder what if I get back to SG! GG for me. ><. I will be going back on 23 Sep maybe 22 Sep (waitlisted) to meet everyone! shiok ar! =) hhahax. Miss everyone and c all of you soon! LOVE! =)

22/7/07

2007-08-22T17:41:00.000+08:00

Wa si bei song! Finally I'm done with HOI! (cheer!) heex =) Mike is back in SG but i cannot accompany him =(. Hey dude, si bei sorry nia, next time then I play wif you alright!?heex jiayou and dun slack ar. If there is a chance, let me c ur gf and i c whether she chio not alright! whahaah later I snatch ar?!=) We shall meet again and do take care of yourself! This apply to everyone 2! Esp Jas and Singyen..noobs! sick and sick and sick..*speechless. Take care of yourself both of you!! ^_6

11/8/07

2007-08-11T03:56:00.000+08:00

This is the end of me. It has been a long time since I feel this way. "You" have caught me again!! I just hate "You". Back off will you? Please let me off. I hate feeling this way and hate hurting someone!! But why do "You" have to interfere and relight my sorrows? FUCK OFF! "You" had already cause a lot of problems to me and yet "You" are unsatisfied?! Cruel?! Why it had turned out to be unpleasant?! It all lies on "You". Why didn't "You" choose to have an happy ending, yet "You" are happy to actually see me hurting someone?! "You" wanna drive me to devil, and hurt anything that comes in my way?!!! But, let me tell "You" this, Evil will never triumph over Justice. One day, just one day when "You" are unaware, I will sentence "You" to death and never allow "You" to interfere in anything I decide.! =(

8/8/07

2007-08-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

Here are some tips to jio gals:

Dedicated to those who seriously need help, esp Boon and etc.

*Listen carefully, it will only work if you catch the right time and say it rightly. Good Luck.
-Difficulty ***

(1) [Say] the girl name : For example: Hinata.

(2) [Say] I Love You. ~WO AI NI~

(3) [Say] Till the oceans dry, till the rocks crumble, ~HAI KU SHI LAN~

(4) [Say] A neverchanging vow. ~SHI ZHI BU YU~

(5) Added effects - play the song - yi zhi hen an jing by ah sang

-给你的爱一直很安静来交换你偶尔给的关心
-明明是三个人的电影我却始终不能有姓名
-给你的爱一直很安静除了泪在我的脸上任性
-原来缘份是用来说明你突然不爱我这件事情

After you have done all those steps listed, it should work well, unless you really have no skills - speechless. Heex =) Miss everyone and take care!!

-The End-

28/7/07

2007-07-28T20:38:00.000+08:00

Kingyo Hanabi

Kokoro ni oyogu kingyo wa
Koishii omoi wo tsunorasete
Makka ni somari mi no renomoi wo
Shirinagara sore demo soba ni itai to negatta no

Natsu no nioi ame no naka de
Bota bota ochiru kingyo hanabi
Hikari de me ga kurande
Isshun utsuru wa anata no yuugao

*Kokoro ni oyogu kingyo wa
Minikusa de tsutsumarenu you
Kono natsu dake no inochi to kimete
Sukoshi no jikan dakedemo anata no shiawase wo negatta no

Natsu no nioi yoru ga tsutsunde
Bota bota ochiru kingyo hanabi
Donna kotoba ni mo dekinai
Isshun utsuru no anata no yuugao

Natsu no nioi ame no naka de
Natsu no nioi ame no naka de

Natsu no nioi ame no naka de
Bota bota ochiru kingyo hanabi
Hikari de me ga kurande
Isshun utsuru wa anata no yuugao

Natsu no nioi yoru ga tsutsunde
Bota bota ochiru kingyo hanabi
Donna kotoba ni mo dekinai
Isshun utsuru no anata no yuugao

Ai Otsuka

22/7/07

2007-07-22T13:57:00.000+08:00

Hey it had been a long time since I last blog...really sorry about it! Btw I had received my exams marks, and unfortunately it was bad..=( Haix, put in more oil next time, maybe it would help? The weather here is chilling me off (2-5'C) So cold but song! heex rather than I suffer in Singapore. ^_6 Have a lot of work to be done this term so have to chiong like du du train!! Hope everything goes fine for all of you and stay healthy alright!? Really miss everyone's presence esp "you".

7/7/07

2007-07-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

Erm..today I went to meet up wif my PAE friends..(Hsin Ming, Huimin, Valarie, Joshua, Grace) + Keli! =) We had lunch at Holland Swensens! Grace, as usual, so naive and easily believe whatever I say. I told her that I book the whole place. She believe because no one around during that time. HAhax =) Hsin Ming and I try to bluff her like nobody business..Hi-five laoda!! Huimin, who is the last one to arrive! Punishment: Pay for all the food. Grace left after her lunch coz she had to attend her violin lesson..dunnoe is for real not, later when she plays, the strings of the violin break! woot!!hahax just kidding, dun get angry! After finishing our meals, we wanted to order dessert (ice-cream - eruption/earthquake? i keep mess up the name of the ice-cream) Upon waiting for the dessert, we play the guessing number game..OMG it had gone beyond my imagination! Starting is only ice-water + salt + pepper...Guess if the other jiejies read this, they would scold us again.! Shuhui drank the ice-milo+ chilli sauce..omg! sorry=(..hahahx. Can you imagine ice-cream wif 8 flavours + chilli + tomato+ salt+ pepper..omg!!!DELICIOUS! so er xin and can faint man..Hsin Ming reaction is so funny!nice right laoda?! The top scorers of the game is Valarie and Huimin, on par, drank the most..eeekk so er xin! Their reactions are damn cool alright! But poor Huimin, kena the golden goal!! 10 spoons of the blended ice-cream!! She very woman alright, despite Keli and Hsin Ming did offer help, she refuse lor!! pei fu!!yucks really disgusting..!dun even want to see it!! Really great having lunch wif all of you and definitely such memories would etched in my head!!!Thank you everyone!*speechless* really touched and fortunate to have such friends around..but few of my friends not around - Kyson & Jeslyn, if not it would be even merrier!! Btw today is 7 July 2007!! is a auspicious day! brighten my day and forever I would not forget this day! Joshua, Valarie, Grace, Hsin Ming, Huimin, Kyson, Jeslyn, I would not forget all of you..All of you replenish my life and add colours to it! Thanks! -Love-

4/7/07

2007-07-04T11:22:00.000+08:00

Today, I spent most of my time with my friends. Really enjoyed and thanked everyone. Firstly, I went running and yun hua be the timer...Guess what..I think I had grown even older..I cannot even complete my 2.4km..Wth la so weak!! I have to train and train because I had nafpa test on 11 July..Cannot FAIL! A few round then I pant like siao siao..haix..damn sad and demoralised.!!=(

Later, I went to Np to meet yining.. I guess she must have waited for us for quite some time..She is frustrated by the time we reached there..coz I had late for about 30 mins? Sorry, yining!!! Hope you xiao ren you xiao liang forgive your son alright!!hahax =) I had my lunch over there, and the food there seems to "fluctuate"! Some taste nice, some not..dunnoe perhaps due to the crowd in the canteeen?hope so..

I went to cut hair le then I went down to JJC to meet my PAE friends and teachers, most importantly is my gf..*blushed*=) All of them seems so welcoming..!!woot! So nice of them...but later danger befall us..My friends and I had awakened the monster within her..Alright, let me summarize: Huimin do not like to drink green tea. Firstly, we put green tea over the dougnuts and give it to huimin. Secondly, I put a green tea bottle inside her bag..But that drink I bought suppose to be for her..she dun wan..Volcano eruption.! *scream! scream!!* Huimin anyhow sei us la..pinch like siao siao like that..damn painful nia..! dun play play wif her sia..still so fierce as usual But I noe partly is my fault coz I also siao siao go make her angry!!hahahx!Poor Kyson and Joshua had to suffer with me.!Paiseh!hahax =) But is the laughter that bring to everyone that count..so I hope huimin will not mind RIGHT?!!hahhax..simmer down!woot i can still sense a wave of heat around her..paiseh!Thanks guys!!

Later, I went to have dinner with my sec friends! Hahax, we went to Sumo to have dinner, at Clementi...Erm, the food is alright.not that bad aniwae.!Worst thing is when they play the guessing number game..! omg poor food have to suffer!so er xin la!!hahx yining without fail would be the central attraction because she laugh so LOUD la!!si bei malu nia!!hahax =) Laughter filled the whole place.!heex sway sway I kena once..out of 2 game??haix *vomit*hahax..After dinner, we went to play pool!We play at West Coast RC..quite a long time since I last play pool, so si bei noob..=( But I'm touched because spent their time with me despite they have school the next day..Thanks guys!! ^_^LOVE

26/6/07

2007-06-25T12:49:00.000+08:00

Alright tml I'll be having Lit exam!!!you guys know what I'm going to say!skip that.!!haix =( Miss all of you!!

5/6/07

2007-06-05T16:49:00.000+08:00

hey yining!!! lolx happy birthday to ya!! I did not forget your birthday alright!!heex you muz be celebrating ur day wif yunhua and gangs right!?hahax really sorry for not being around to celebrate along wif them...really feel miserable when i think that i was secluded from everyone else, in the sense that i'm not there to bring joy or laughter to everyone of you and you , yining!=((

I 've know you for 2 yrs and u had indeed been a nice fren towards me. I really appreaciate everything u had done for me..thx! i simply juz cannot describe my feelings, it was beyond description..you are really great!=))thx for being there whenever i falls!aniwae wait for me to return!!heex. Hope you enjoy that special day of urs and stay cheerful as always!!stay stong and miss yaa!!!HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!=))LOVE

5/6/07

2007-06-05T16:32:00.000+08:00

hey goodness gracious GRACE! happy birthday to ya!!yesterday was huimin birthday and today ur turn! hahax really sorry for not able to celebrate your birthday with ya=( ur present will be available once i return to SG same for everyone whose birthday is on the month of JUNE, which included quite a number of my friends!hahax

Heex really great knowing you. You are so KIND AND HELPFUL!*vomit!=))j/k remember asking you "HEY HELP ME PUT MY PLATES BACK OK?!"haax you so nice to bully!omg i'm damn bad!!heex..really nice of you to teach me how to put the lens!hahax and accompany me to buy all the stuffs..woo!aniwae really paiseh for making u angry at times, but i know u r not that petty one right?u would forgive me right?!haahax thx!! *bleh!aniwae all the best in your future endeavours and stay healthy. [don't u think this sentence sound familiar to you] =)) Once again, happy birthday and wait for me to return to receive ur fat fat present!miss ya and take care!!stay in the PURPLE of health.!hahax

4/6/07

2007-06-03T23:21:00.000+08:00

-=ENERGY=-

Hey huimin, happy birthday to ya!!!Sorry for not being around to celebrate your special day with you along with all the jiejies. Aniwae, the song chosen is for you and hope you like it!Although, I’m not there to wish you, hope you would stay cheerful and smile more!! *dun be so dao* =]!

Still remember you take the green tea bottle and smash it on the ground!!awwww!poor bottle! You are crazy!” screaming “WHO PUT GREEN TEA BOTTLE INSIDE MY BAG!!!!!” shhh! Everything went smoothly until Grace and Lao Da leak out my name!!!DOOMSDAY!!LAO DA if you are reading it..hmph is your fault who get me into trouble, filled with bruises all over my hands!!!Damn painful ok!!

I just wanna help you to fall in love with green tea, since it is such a nice drink!isn’t it sujing??heex the best is to put cheese inside and stir it and serve.!!woo that’s for keli!! Really great knowing you and thank for the fun and joy you bought to me, although most of it are painful memories!!=)) heex cheer and smile!! You cannot get angry during your birthday wor!!heex.Aniwae, once again, juz wanna wish you a happy birthday and hope jiejies will bring you memorable memories!miss ya and stay in the GREEN of health!woo!no angry I say no angry!!^_6 take care

22/5/07

2007-05-22T17:19:00.000+08:00

*Dearest*

Yesterday, 21/5/07 was the most memorable day for me. Every words you said have etched deep in my mind. I will never forget everything you had done for me. Perhaps, it's been hard for you, as I'm not around, yet you had stayed strong and looked forward till the day we reunited. I'm so touched, so touched, when you tell me..bla bla bla *later bombarded by jiejies* shhhh=]. I'm really speechless, my feeling is even a millions of words which cannot be described nor expressed. Sometimes, I'm dwelling whether I had did the right thing, that is to start a relationship b4 I'm gone. I just cannot bear to see you keeping everything to yourself due to the reason I'm not by yourside to share your sorrows and problems. On the other hand, if I had never told you about it, I'm afraid that by the time I return, you was already attached to someone else. I just cannot help it but to be selfish to let you know. I don't want you to slip off my sight.

There are times when I actually made you worry or even angry. I really apologised for all those events. I did not spare a thought for you, and instead of giving you absolute happiness, I made you worry and shed. Thinking back, I'm really foolish and selfish. However, never once, you did reprimand me nor tell me off. Instead, you console me and encourage me whenever I felt as if I was beyond the beyond. Back then, I did not really cherish every moments we spent together. All those opportunities slipped off my hands without I noticing them. I just hope I can turn back time and spent every seconds, minutes, hours with you - isolate everyone else where we were brought to a dimension with no one else but only you and me...

-I LOVE YOU-

*In these wavering skies,

*I will fly to you.

*Since we’ve always been together,

*the space between us had become too big.

*Waiting for your honest reply,

*anyone would be lonely.

*If you’re crying in the town I can’t see,

*even if I’m not with you, my smile will reach you.

*In these wavering skies,

*I will fly to you.

*I can feel it this close,

*these two feelings.

13/5/07

2007-05-13T01:13:00.000+08:00

When I look at the sky,

I see all the stars twinkling.

They’re like the people of this planet,

all emitting different types of light.

I want to stand out in that crowd,

and shine brighter than everyone else.

I close my eyes and swear.

I entrust my dream to a shooting star.

This is the park I always go to.

I can watch the night scenery

from the slide.

Since long ago, it’s been my own special seat.

Whenever I have troubles, I always come here.

Ever since that time, I’ve been chasing my dream.

Even now, it hasn’t come true.

Maybe this is the end.

What a weak voice I speak in.

There are days when I feel bitter about it.

But then I’ll remember

looking for the shooting star in that starry sky.

The wish that I made when I was young

Hasn’t changed with the passage of time.

When I look at the sky,

I see all the stars twinkling.

They’re like the people of this planet,

all emitting different types of light.

I want to stand out in that crowd,

and shine brighter than everyone else.

Yea.

I close my eyes and swear.

I entrust my dream to a shooting star.

-Limit Release- BANKAI!

12/5/07

2007-05-12T00:18:00.000+08:00

Beloved Mummy!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

Mother's Day is just around the corner and I just cannot wait to give HER a surprise. I have always waited for this day to arrive, to express my love towards HER. As I understand SHE has indeed undergone much sufferings and bitterness to raise ME, energetic and problematic son...=] SHE has always worked till late night and sometimes don't even have the time to rest. Mum I just want to let you know that no matter what happen, I will never forget everything you have done for me. I promise I will return you ten times the LOVE and CARE you have provided. I PROMISE. I PROMISE. I apologise for not being there on Sunday, 13/5/07 is Mother's Day. I really hope you would stay cheerful and healthy, as young as ever, and please take good care of yourself. PROMISE ME PLEASE? I cannot predict how my life would be without the presence of you. Although there are times when we are in loggerheads, please pardon me for my childishness and naiveness. I would bear in mind everything you have taught me in life and not disappoint you. Without me being around, you should even take extra care as I will not be there to nag at you or reminding you to come home early and rest more. I really don't wish to see you fall sick because of exhuastion. IT JUST NOT WORTH IT! It is obvious that you have no choice but to work in order to support the family. I understand how you feel and is not that you don't want to rest, but in fact you just cannot find anytime to rest. I understand. I understand. Try alright?

As for me, you need not have to worry much. "You're BRAVE." This is what you told me before I leave. I am able to adapt the environment here and thus once again no worry. Although, there are times when the weather is unpredictable, I'm able to adjust myself. I have made lot of friends and all of them are caring and nice. I have friends who even cook for me, so nice of them! Please don't ask me to bring them home and show them to you.LOL! Therefore, you really don't have to worry much about me, instead take extreme care for yourself. I have grown up and would take care of myself. I would be going back on 3 July or even earlier, meanwhile just stay strong. This is what I wish for. Once again, I hope you would enjoy the special day of yours and stay in the pink of health ever! I LOVE YOU! MELVIN

28/4/07

2007-04-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

Today, maybe a special day to me? I put her picture as my display pic and was bombarded by my frens! Hahax..! Before that, I went to call my mother! Upon hearing my voice, she super-high! "HEy, how are you?! I LOVE YOU!..GOT MISS ME!" She was screaming la, she happy till I also damn high!"Of course I LOVE U AND MISS U!!" whhahaha both of us were shouting away in the phone!

Later, I went to call my other frens, juz wanna hear their voice and check whether they are doing well..sound like father or mother??LOL. Glad seeing them doing well and everyone is fine and healthy!eheex

Next, I went to bathe and came online. She was online, waiting for me! hehex! so nice har! =] I came online and we began chatting...everything was going smoothly and seem that her frens noe eveything abt both of us! opps! deadmeat when i return SG..HELP! ahhahx [ nid to wear a mask when i return! shhhhh] muhaha!

Btw, i did badly for english la! haix...70% for the first test..jialat and everyone is scoring like 85-95%..gg for me..!jiayou!yup..!

Dedicated to everyone!!! Dun say i bias ar! =]

To everyone you maybe alone,

But to me you are everything.

Even though I'm unavailable,

That does not mean anything!

You still must STRIVE,

To uphold the FRIENDSHIP,

To FIGHT all odds,

To forge a FIRM brotherhood !

I will not forget you.

Neither do you!

Neither must you give up,

Neither must you hide!

Face the obstacles,

And stand strong!

You are not alone,

I will always have you backup!

B - rotherhood

A- lways

S- tays

E- ternally!

LOVE Mel!

18/4/07

2007-04-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

+Specially Dedicated To You+

I do know it's hard to maintain a long-distance relationship, this perhaps would be an obstacle for us to overcome and gain new experiences. I really understand how you feel right now, I'm so sorry that I could not accompany by your side 24/7, to share your joys and sorrows. I really hope you would understand and stay strong till the day I'm back, alright? I understand it's real tough for you to withstand such immerse pressure from all kinds of factors, but do not give up! Even if you feel depress and dull, look back! and I will always be there waiting for you. I have absolute confidence and faith in you! I’m sure you are able to make it through.

To me, you are everything. You are mine motivation, mine drive to pull me through all these difficult times ahead. Therefore, you should not fall! If you ever fall, there would be nothing left in me, I would eventually be “dead”.

+Love+

An old yellow lamp

Time beside me, not making a sound

Loneliness mercilessly on me

Not knowing different intensities (of light and hard)

Quietness has crossed over to strangeness

Quietly looking at morning and sunset

Your silhouette

Losing balance

Falling slowly

Darkness is already encircling us in the sky

Where I should face? I can't see

Perhaps love is at the other end of a dream

Unable to survive in the realms of reality

Want to return to the past

To try to hug you

Blushing (shy) face has a little childish side

Want to see the world you see

Want to be in your dreams

Only if we lean on each other can we feel the sweetness (or blissfulness)

Want to return to the past

To try to allow the story to continue

At least I won't allow you to leave me again

I'll take note when we part

To hug you even tighter

This sort of salvage effort, I don't know if it's still in time

Want to return to the past

Emotions keep stopping the memories playing (in my head)

Blindly chasing and looking yet still empty-handed (or in vain)

On a grey and unclear night, I don't know where sleep has hidden

Before I know it loneliness is already lying beside me

16/4/07

2007-04-16T21:36:00.000+08:00

Haix, another unlucky day. I went to recharge mine phone as I'm using pre-paid card over here. I went to 7-eleven to buy the card and then went home happily. Arriving at home, I ate SUBWAY wif mine fren and I wanted to recharge the value. To recharge the value, you have to call the service and type in all the numbers and bla bla bla...Come to thought of it, I felt that mine plan SUX, so I wanna change mine plan. After recharging mine phone, I call the Customer's Service and seek help regarding of the plan I would prefer. Bla bla bla bla " You should have call us b4 u recharge your phone, I can change ur plan right now but you will not receive any bonus value." Supposedly, I had to pay $30 and the plan will credit me $120 value. But now she say due to not calling us b4 u recharge, you will only receive $30 instead of $120. Then I ask her whether i can change back to mine previous plan then, even though its suck, but at least I'm entitled to call mine frens over here for free. However, wif the plan right now, which suppose to be $120 but it only entitled me $30, even i call mine frens over here will be charged! WTF!WAT KIND OF SERVICE IS THIS..! KNN..You guys noe what she say" Use up the value then u call us again to change ur plan" Fuck i juz recharge and she ask me to waste it like nobody business juz to change a stupid plan..Can't she juz change it right now?STICK TO WAT STUPID RULE AND SHIT! LAMER! Hearing wat she say, I so fed up that i dun even want to talk to her, i juz erm erm erm,,okokok alright..thx BYE!!!" Stupid person!HAix..

Actually hor, come to think of it, I also also at fault la..never consider abt the consequences and effects..NOOB! Opps i scold myself NOOB!=)) BEN DAN LA!hee, just treat it as a lesson learnt then, be optimstic right?=] Daijobu!**

LOVE

8/4/07

2007-04-07T22:27:00.000+08:00

My worst day, perhaps would be today I guess. I went wif mine frens today to IKEA to buy furniture and other necessities. They bought a FULL LENGTH MIRROR and some other stuffs..whereas for me I bought quite a few things 2...The full length mirror is so huge and very "cuo teh" la! But nvm I guess, I carry for them the "Reflect Demon Mirror"!=))

After then, they went to some factory outlets to shop. Over there, things can be quite cheap and reasonable, but I did not get myself anything..then we juz walk on and on...and took a tram home.

Later on, when I arrive at mine apartment, I start to panic. I found out that mine apartment key and mailbox key had gone."WHERE HAVE THEY FLY TO??!! OMG DUN DO THIS TO ME! I CANNOT ENTER MINE ROOM THEN!I SEARCH DESPERATELY, OVER AND OVER AGAIN IN MINE POCKET, JACKET AND STILL CANNOT FIND IT" I told mine frens that I had lost mine keys.At that instance, mine emotions started to bulit up. Neither of the emotions were filled wif happiness nor joyfulness..its juz sadness...=((

The first thing come to mine mind was "WHERE ARE YOU? HOW I WISH YOU WERE AROUND TO REMIND ME TO CHECK WHETHER I HAD BROUGHT EVERYTHING? CHECK EVERYTIME WHEN I SO BLUR! THOUSANDS, MILLIONS OF IMAGES OF YOU JUST GUSH UP TO MINE MIND! *TEARS GATHERED IN MINE EYES* I KNOW I HAVE TO ENDURED TILL THE DAY WHEN I RETURN. I SIMPLY MISS YOU!!- A LOT A LOT, WHICH EVEN MILLIONS OF WORDS CANNOT DESCRIBE THE FEELINGS RIGHT NOW.

After all of those flashing images that appear in mine mind instantly, I went to the reception to buy a new pair of keys."Can I have a copy of mine apartment key?"" Sure!" That new set of keys cost me AUD$140 approximate SG$185. By that time, mine heart was numb, I just cannot feel anything. I handle over the money and walk away silently.

Later, mine frens had invited me over to have dinner wif them. They consoled me and say "Just take it as a lesson learnt then, dun be so careless+blur next time! Think of the bright side." I tried to swallow whatever they had said, and try mine best to forget that unpleasant incident. I had indulged in eating at their place, simply eat anything i c...

After dinner, I slept in the sofa. Flash and flash of pictures appeared when I closed mine eyes..I miss everyone - mine frens! mine mummy! mine doggy! and you! I just wish i could forever be in that dimension where everyone was around me, playing and having fun! I had created an illusion zone for me to fall in.

I juz dunnoe how to continue le.Miss everyone and take care of yourself guys!

LOVE Melvin.

6/4/07

2007-04-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, 5/4/07 I slept at 2+am, b4 tt i was watching ghost show lor! WOO shiok, Melbourne also got ghost show one lor! Hahax but the show very lame, lame till i wanna fall asleep! SERIOUSLY NOT SCARY AT ALL LA- EVEN THOUGH IS A JAPANESE FILM!EEEYER! =))

Coz yesterday i slept very late, so I was thinking tt since tml I have no school why not i juz sleep till I shuang!wee *go bed*

The next morning, which is today, wa people bang bang mine door la! I haven wake up la, sleep till so shuang who would wan to wake up right? Then i went to open the door" MELVIN, wake up we go shopping tgt!" OMG! I was so tired lor, and mine frens and ask me to go and change fast coz their mummy was waiting for me also! Oh shit, jialat liao..I faster go brush teeth then change clothes. Then i panic coz i cannot find mine handphone" WTH la, i late liao still wan to play wif me!" I shouted. Then you noe where the handphone is? Under mine sleeping desk, I was puzzled how mine hand can crawl to there one...!I sleep till so power mehz, turn here and there till mine handphone also fly away!woo!=]

Theere I chiong out la..at the lobby, I sibei paiseh lor, all of them waiting for me including mummy, ohoh!!"Sorry!"Hahax. Then I went shopping wif mine frens..

First, we went to take at tram to St Kilda Beach! Wow, the scenery is simply fantastic! Then got people bring their doggies to swim in the beach! Swans swimming here and there..but very cold over there..wind too strong le. After a while, i feel hungry coz i haven eat breakfast la! Mine stomach gulu gulu jiao lor!

Haha, then we arrive in a restaurant, where the chairs and tables are situated along the beach - nice scenery+ good food = paradise! ahahx, shiok!

After that, we walk again, here and there, miles and miles, kilometers by kilometers..think i going to get heat stroke liao! Melbourne weather is so unpredictable, one time strong wind cold cold next moment hot hot like going to faint like dat...although i like tanning but also dun treat me like dat ma..make me shuang liao then make me faint!haix..

Later on, we went to a place name Docklands. We were finding one of the Mlebourne attractions seen in a brochure. And u noe what: We have been looking for tt place for so long and even ask the locals where the hell is tt place. Eventually, the answer we get is" erm, i think it is still under contruction'! OMG! then we walk here and there like siao siao one juz to c woods and metals lying on the floors!haix

After a long devastated walk - JOURNEY TO THE WEST, wa i very de tired! cannot tahan liaox...later on we went to Chinatown to have our lunch in Si Chuan Restaurant. The food there simply HOT till ki siao.! I was sweating like nobody business la, keep dripping and dripping malu la! but aniwae the food there is nice and is a new exp for me!

I'm back home now, lying on the bed..weee sleep!hahax=]*

P.S: Yining I'm fine, wat abt you? Your camp fun ma? hahax.! Going to start school lor, muz jiayou hor! Aza Aza Fighting! =)))

5/4/07

2007-04-05T20:51:00.000+08:00

I have started school for a week le, actually not so bad la...hahax I manage to understand wat the lecturers trying to say and bla bla bla..but i'm puzzled when all mine frens noe wat literature text we will be using..WHICH I NEVER HEAR B4 THE TEACHER SAY LOR! This simply imply that i never listen in class and staring blankly in space??=]

I will not be having lessons on friday as it is EASTER DAY over here in Australia, which also means Monday i dun have lessons 2..muhahaha! Everyone will be out shopping to celebrate this special day over here, but i also dun have any plans lor..not familiar wif the places here!hahax c ba.

At night, i went shopping wif mine frens..haha we went to eat thai food in a restaurant and the food there not bad la..kekex. After then, i went to KOKO BLACK to buy some chocolate, wanna try whether the chocolate nice ma?What do u think?hahax! Later on, we went to gelato = a ice-cream stall to buy some ice-cream - passion fruit, honey crumble, ferrero crush! eeek, passion fruit so sour, i dun like! Furthermore, the weather here is so cold right now! While eating, i was trembling la..woo shiok!=))

>Wondering whether you are alright,
>Mine head simply turn left & right,
>I hope you are alright,
>Hoping that mine guess was right!

LOVE*

2/4/07

2007-04-02T19:36:00.000+08:00

Today i have juz started school and I have to wake up at 8.15am to get ready myself for school. Isn't tt early? The distance between mine apartment and the school is abt 15mins walk which is abt ~ ...km? =]

Arriving at school, I hav to register myself and have mine photo taken for the student card in Trinity. Tell you one secret: THE PHOTOGRAPHER HAS NO LICENSE AT ALL LA! The moment i juz sit down on a chair, he say" Alright,Lovely! Thank you." Wth la, i haven even pose lor..hahax aniwae i'm not photogenic so tt does not post much of a problem to me!=)

After then, I was brought to JUNIOR COMMON ROOM, a place where all international students have gathered. I have made frens wif them and crap along wif them 2..kekex! The staffs then introduce themselves and I'm brought to some hulu hulu place again.haix.

To mine horror, I found myself to be in LT1. I sense something bad is going to happen! " Hey students we will be having ENGLISH DIAGNOSTIC TEST NOW! PLEASE SIT DOWN NOW AND GET READY!" Mine mind went blank lor..I mumbled" WTH, jialat liao la...OMG OMG OMG! GG! for me!haix..

Upon receiving the test papers, mine palm was sweating profusely la...=[ And there is one section which require you to write an essay within 30 mins! OMG! The time has reduced from 1h in the past to 30mins now la! Let me recall of the question...hump! Here it goes" DO YOU THINK YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD LIVE WIF THEIR PARENTS TILL THEY GET MARRY!?" Lol how will you answer this question, and given only 30mins! I did mine best and crap as much as possible wish tt i was not out of point...scary nia!

After the test, I have mine lunch break.. AND OMG! THE LUNCH BREAK CONSIST OF ONLY 1 SANDWHICH, 1 APPLE, 1 FRUIT JUICE. I NOE THEY WAN US TO BE HEALTHY BUT ALSO NOT TO THIS EXTENT MA! MUMMY! LOL ^_6..haix have to endure..hehex

Later part, I went for course selection. I have chosen double Maths and Physic as Elective subjects. Hope i did not make the wrong choice...whatever the choice is I have to work hard and faster finish the studies here and go back HOME!!! MUHAHAHA*

Finally, I was brought by a leader to tour ard the Uni of Mel and Trinity..by then I was very exhausted and fatigue! The time now is 4+pm nearly to 5pm le...I have been in school for damn long lor.!hahax eventually the day ended.! I went to take photos wif mine frens and their mummy!haha =))

Later on, i went to have dinner wif mine frenz and we went to a famous pizza restaurant.! COOL! Over there, the pizza is huge and delicious but can be costly at times, be careful har! LOL...reminding myself! ya and tt all for today, i was really tired now!

I LAY ON THE BED, MISSING EVERYONE! I CLOSE MINE EYES, AND THOUSANDS OF IMAGES APPEAR IN MINE MIND! I FEEL TOUCHED AND HAPPY! REALLY MISS YOU GUYS! DO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND LOVE YOU*!

LOVE MELVIN!

31/3/07

2007-04-01T00:15:00.000+08:00

This is dedicated to mine beloved frens!

>Engulfed by darkness,
>Mine vision went blur,
>Regaining concious,
>And it's too late.

>Tears accumulated,
>Awaiting to shatter,
>Rolling down mine cheeks,
>I wipe it away.

>In the plane,
>Looking outside the window,
>Hallucinations occur,
>Array of images appear insight.

>Turn back time,
>Recall happy moments,
>Cherish every moments,
>And that's precious moments.

>Alone in here,
>Feeling alien,
>Striving hard,
>So as to survive.

>Look up the sky,
>Stars shining brightly,
>Clouds overwhelming,
>Shadows engulfed.

>Miss deeply,
>That's what i thought,
>Having a second thought,
>And that must be you!