Euphoria | Dysphoria

On Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Alright today I had my Napfa Test in Toa Payoh Stadium. I felt disappointed for my STB because seriously I can't jump for shit =(. Other stations were alright and the most outstanding station would be my SNR i guess. One of the people over there can stretch up to 53 and the instructor was shocked! He said" ANYONE WHO CAN BEAT THIS SCORE OF 53, I WILL TREAT HIM FOR BREAKFAST!" Various people went to try but still cannot beat the previous high score of 53. It's my turn. I told myself I can do it.Come on.! One of the instructor was saying"Hey this guy look great, I guess your breakfast will be gone! We joked around and I started to stretch. Guess what?! 56!=) The instructor was like OMG crazy guy!I just giggle, heex.=) I was very happy!yea! FOC breakfast..heex=] However, even though the rest of the stations were coping well, I felt depressed because I cannot obtain GOLD because of my STB.

Here are my results:

Sit Up: 5
Chin up: 4
Sit & Reach: 5
Broad Jump: 2!!
Shuttle Run: 5
2.4km Run: 4

Total Scores: 25
Status: Pass
Award: Silver!!=(

After getting back my result, I called my brother because I wanted to share wif him the good news that I had passed the Test. I called.

Me: Bro, I passed!
He: What award?
Me: erm..Silver.
He: Fuck you! SILVER!? You weakling!
Me: *stunned.
He: SILVER AND YOU THINK IS A GOOD NEWS!!
Me: I had tried my best for the STB and I just can't make it.
He: NO YOU DIDN'T! I HAVE ASKED YOU TO TRAIN SINCE WHEN HUH!
Me: I did train!!!
He: THEN WHY STILL SILVER! RETAKE!
Me: Are you crazy! I had passed already and you still want me to retake just to get the GOLD medal!
He: *talked about army stuffs which I can't really understand. After then, he hang up.
Me: *speechless.

I understand where he is coming from. He always wanted the best out of me and I do know that it's for my own good. However, I just wanted to let him know that I had really tried my very best so as to attain GOLD. I even beg for a chance to retake the STB and hoping that the officer would give me that chance which is so important to me. But in the end, it still failed me. I was literally depressed. No more gold medal, so what if you did well for other stations.you can't jump shit, I told myself =[....I was feeling down right now...

At 11:12 AM;
Aishiteru Melvin